Esther Essence

BLOG SHIFTED!!!

2008-09-05T06:30:00.003+08:00

My blog has been offically shifted.

But i'll still keep this blog as part of my memories. Dear friends n readers, u can email me for the new url of my blog. Thx for all your support tis few years. *Smiles*

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2008-08-08T13:20:00.002+08:00

Leading a own life of her own. Seeing nobody but her in the eyes. Working for money n spending on her spree. Having friends around her. Good and True friends. But lacking something. Something that was lost once before and thought that it'll never be retrieve back. However, true heart do exist.

One morning when she woke up. There was a msg. 080808, 080808. Well, what was that? * 08 August 2008, 8hour, 8min n 8sec. "Will you be my girlfriend?" Tears swelled up and the lady smiled. :)

My Life...

2008-07-27T23:24:00.004+08:00

Have been hanging out wif my gals lately. Muahaha... It seems tt those hard days are over. NO longer having the pathetic look *qiong suan* face anymore. LOL...

Currently, it seems tt me have been addicted to a place. Pool Junction. I actually go there n ve a pie of Hoegarden. It's really nice la... Bought Ting, Fen n Reg there. It seems we ve lots of fun over there. A very ideal place for slacking n drinking. At least better den club huh. LOL... Will post pics after i take the pic from Ting.

Um.. moving out doesn't seems easy. But no choice huh... anyway, i've bought another Esprit edc jeans. Ha. Can't help it. Juz wanna shop shop shop... :)

~tata~

Um...

2008-07-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

Had been busy working tis few days... Um... as usual, went shopping. LOL..

Bought a EDC Esprite Jeans. Love it damn lots. Saw tis top at Miss Emily and not sure if i should buy it. Maybe u gals help to give suggestions???

There are like so many things i wanna buy now la.... argh!!! Brought a lingerie at E2. LOve it loads as well. Especially the little sparkling thingy... :)

I WANNA SHOP SHOP SHOP~!!!!!

My girls~

2008-07-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

Time to update my ramblings... ^^

Some random night with my girlies. Muahaha.. i still rmb we had whiskey coke. And seriously, we kinda get tipsy over all those alcohol. Haha.. Love u gals loads! *my hip hop class* u gals noes wat i meant... LOL!!!

Even thought we might not be together anymore. We still stay strong n our friendships shall stays on

FOREVER. Love u gals loads. Thx for being there for when i need u gals most. Appreciate everything

that u girls had done for me. :)

Kellie bought me a Hello Kitty wallets. It's nice n i love it loads. :)

Will be back for more updates. :)

Wireless charger... LOL...

2008-07-02T15:06:00.002+08:00

I"M SO SO FUCKING PISSED and WANTING TO LAUGH OUT LOUD OFF RIGHT NOW!!!!~

Well, can anyone be so damn retarded n still think so highly of himself. I feel like using an axe and hack tt person up. Especially tt "neh neh" tone n the shaking of head. LOL...

*like those type of ah gong ah ma porcelain dolls shake side by side de.*

I was in my shop sitting down n tis ah neh come into my shop. I see him walk here n there on our accessories section as if looking for something. So i approached n ask him politely if i could help. He said "no" n said he can find the things himself.

So i stand one side n observe wat he's really looking for. He kp looking at chargers n kp seeing through the packaging. After a few mins, i tink he kinda get impatient n come to approach me.

"Do u sell charger?" *shaking his head side by side*

"Urm. Yes. May i noe wat type of charger are u looking for?" i asked.

"U ve WIRELESS CHARGER?" he ask sternly.

"I'm sorry. There's no wireless charger. Do u wanna take a look at our car charger or cradle?" I was really stunned.

" No no no... i wan charger. But wireless. No wire.. no..no.." *shaking his head side by side again*

"Urm... no wire how u charge?" I being to get pissed off by his "pattern"

" No no no.. can charge.. Wireless charger... charge by bluetooth." He insist somemore!

" I'm sry.. we dun sell tt type of charger." I said.

" I go India, India have. Wirless charger... No wire one.. no no... " *shakes head side by side*

" Den maybe u can go India and buy. We dun sell *wireless charger* here." i said.

HELLO!~! Can anyone tell me how to charge a electronics without using wire?! Is there a charger tt charge by bluetooth meh? OMG! LOL... Tt ah neh still insist la.. I bet he ask other shops those ppl will laugh. Haha... Maybe wait for me invent bah. WIRELESS CHARGER!!!

Haiz... been tired. Work n work n work. I miss u gals.. When are we having our gathering again? Tis Fri right? Lets ve a feast. :)

Celebrations~

2008-06-25T08:33:00.002+08:00

Went to celebrate birthday wif one of my college, Shirley. We had steamboat at Bugis n tt night, we really enjoy ourselves. :)

Me and Shirley. She's a wise woman who had taught me alot of things in life. Not only a good working college but also a true friend. :)

They are Jimmy, Daniel, Michael n my godfather, Ryan.

When we reach there, we chose out own seats comfortably. However, my poor godfather pick the wrong seat. The gas below kp heating his bottom. And throughout the whole night, he was "HOT" LOL... It's damn hilarious lah... haha...

After eating, we went to Pool Junction to ve some beer, They order Hoegarden. Well, it's really nice. And i love the ambience over there. Nx time,, should bring my gals go over there.. :)

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GUESS WAT?!

I MET GAVIN SKAROS!!!! He's the 唯我独尊 contestant, M8* Muahaha.. He's damn tall n handsome la. His bodyline n abbs. OMG!!! It's juz far beyond ur imagination la. But he's really tall. -_-''' *or should i say i'm really short*

I tell u, when he was standing beside me, i felt like my heart is thumping in my mouth. When he put his hand on my shoulder n took pictures wif me, i was like, "kill me pls" LOL~! He's really handsome n charming. Too bad he din got in the finalist. But it's ok. He'll forvever be my all-time fav. *my greece prince*

Um... tired. Will be back for more updates... :)

My RED MacBook

2008-06-23T11:30:00.002+08:00

Finally, i present to u my MacBook!!!

Love my macbook loads. Um...miss my gals.. so i guess our nx gathering should be before Jem's NS. haha...

Besties from PC Show

2008-06-16T11:54:00.003+08:00
Worked at the PC show for the last 4 days at Suntec. Was kinda tiring though but we had lots of fun. Knew many frenz n shock to see many of my past colleges. Haha.. Again, i was located at Shure earphones. BUt tis time round, under epicenter. Not Ban Leong. :X

Anyway, work wif tis 2 besties n we had lotsa fun!

One is call Terrance and the other is call Lavone. *special name huh*

Next, i present to you Ban Leong Designer, WAYNE~!

Getting crazy...

And two other 2 guys i knew from Belkin. Always ask me help them stick screen protector for customers... Next time muz charge them. -_-'''

Donald n me

Yong Hon n me

Lastly, me n Lavone. She's simple so cute n sucha darling to me. Muacks~!

Enjoyed myself at the PC Show. Jokes n laughter is nv ending. Haha... Tt's Jeremy walk here n there like tourist lidat. But heard tt his sales not bad.. UM... will be back for more updates. Tata~!

I love my Mac

2008-06-10T03:54:00.002+08:00
It's like so late now n i juz woke up....

From a nightmare...

I dreamt tt i'm walking on a path towards no where. Suddenly, i stepped n i fall down into a hole. It was juz so deep n i dunno wat happen n i jumped up. Well, i guess now it is still fresh in my mind.

Um... currently i'm quite occupied wif my life. My work n my gals. Especially my MacBook. OMG! I'm so obsessed wif it. Practically bringing it everywhere i go. LOL... Can't help it. I juz love it loads la... Haha... Can run on 2 operating system. U tell me la, can windows do that?

NO!!!!!

Haha... let me make a statment.

"Watever windows can do, a Mac can do as well. However, watever a Mac can do, a window could NEVER EVER do or ve a friction of it."

Muahaha...

I'm a Mac fan now. Coz window juz let me down... haiz....

BTW, Vista copys mac. I'll show u a video y.. Maybe on my nx post. Um... got to slp nw. Tired.. :)

My MacBook

2008-06-05T03:56:00.003+08:00

FINALLY!!!

I got myself a MacBook. Haha... damn like it. It's red in colour. I can surf the web n play games which watever i like. Best of all, it's MINE! No sharing or giving. TOTALLY MINE!

Yippy! I'll take some pics n load it in. :)

Um... had been working hard lately n things seems to be on the track again. Tt's wat i call life! Haha... Right now, i;m really contented to wat i have. A MacBook. *grins*

Shall stop here... back for more updates... :)

I'm fine...

2008-05-26T23:48:00.002+08:00
Work n work n work. Damn tired la... My goals for buying an iMac seems to get further n further. Haiz... Juz how much more???!!!! Argh....

Currently, working seems to be my whole life. Time to time, will find Reg out or look for her. Um... whr r my frenz? Anyway, i'm waiting for our gathering. Listen up, Fen, Ting, Reg n Jem!!!
haha...

As for my other frenz,

PS: Lyn n the rest, thx guys, i'm fine. I juz ned sometime to digest. Anyway, no one is to be blame. It's juz smthg tt wat i did tt's wrong. Dun worry, i'll be fine. :)

I miss Danger. :( Danger is a dog at the pet shop. He's going to London wif his owner... :(

My Gracy

2008-05-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

I guess i'm juz a loner.

The only living beings tt held me on tight was Gracy. Gracy was a Maltese breed at the pet shop tt i'm working for. She's cute n simply would be there for me. Tt's no doubt. And other dogs as well. ARe humans really that not to be trust?

Ever wonder how long u will live? Wat if tml u were told tt u will die. Um... i wonder. Would u treasure every min n sec tt u remaning have? Who will u spend ur remaining time wif? Guess nowadays, people are too busy to tink bout tt.

Treasure.

Easy to say but hard to do.

Anyway, i'll try to treasure everyone ard me. I know i will. :)

YIPPY~!

2008-05-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!! I'm given a job at .the.other.paw!!!!!!!!!!

Means, i could finally spend time wif, Jimbo, Lee, GRACY, Limo, Danger, Handsome n Lucy. All my babies!!! Haha... There are even more.. can't rmb at these time. Will be bringing those dogs out for a walk. :) Muahaha... Love those dogs lots!

Um... I miss GRACY... Well, i've got her, she has got me. :)

Mac user to be...

2008-05-06T21:24:00.003+08:00
It's the second day i've work at NuBox. It was pretty great. People here seems nice to get along wif. And i really am in love wif Mac. I mean seriously, after using so many years of Windows, i found out tt actually Mac is so much better. Whether in terms of applications or speed. So much faster n more things to play wif.

Um... i ned to save up now to get my iMac. I have decided to buy tt on a 12 month instalement plan. :) Muahaha... *Proud to be a Mac user* Right now, life has been the same. Work n Home are the most 2 common places tt u could found me in. MAybe juz for the time being i might not club. :)

Got to pack up now. Knocking off from work. :) *winkz...

Welcome Back

2008-05-05T17:28:00.003+08:00
It's been really ages since i've last updated my blog. Many things have happened over these past few weeks. And seriously, there are disappointments, regrets n anger. Perhaps is really how life goes. Watever it is, i seriously noe tt many a time, the problem lies wif me. Many people juz point fingers at others when things happen, but they nv do reflect on themselves. I'm juz one such example. Anyway, life still got to continues....

Um... Currently working at Tampines Mall, 3 lvl NuBox. Selling apple products. A pretty nice product to sell. And seriously, i feel *tempted* to buy a macbook. I noe it's very expensive but i will try to learn to save up. Currently, i'm on debts so tt can put on hold first. Um.. juz ended a roadshow yday at Raffles City Atrium. Selling SHURE earphones. I'm again *tempted* to buy the SE530 earphones. BUT it's so ex la. That also have to put on hold as well. Haiz... i'm also *tempted* to buy a LV wallet. AND THAT ONE DEFINITELY MUZ PUT ON HOLD. LOL...

Anyway, i guess mistakes i've made previously should not be repeated again. So i guess it's time to pack up, and move on....

WELCOME BACK~ Esther. :)

HAte it~

2008-03-22T23:00:00.002+08:00

It's been really long since i last blog. I really dunno how to blog bout my life. I mean... is tis really wat we call the dark abyss of our life? I dunno...

My family members especially. They seems to ve drift so much apart from me. They nv tried to understand n noe me well enough. They juz assume wat they saw n wat they hear. Quarrels has become a norm btw me n them. My siblings as well. Forever so irritating n idiotic. Fancy snatching watever things tt they can wif u. Selfish n self-centered. I wonder y my family members is lidat. They are always doing things to the extreme. Noe wat, the biggest wish n dreams tt both my parents hope was, ME MOVING OUT OF THE HOUSE. They simply juz hate the sight of me. Well, i guess soon... :X

My life seems to ve tored apart now. I really wish somebody or someone could take me away... :(

MY HAIR!!!

2008-03-04T11:00:00.003+08:00
I wanna grow my hair!!! ARGH!!!

Well, tis is the hairstyle which i wanna ve if my hair is long enuff. My hair muz at least grow until all the way to my butt. -_-''' Now u guys muz be wondering y dun i go for hair extension, coz i dun ve money!!! haiz... I went over to my hair dresser n took her mag to take a picture out of it. :)

Nice ma? I like her big big outcurls. So nice lor... Haha.. but my hairstylist say will take time to form curls lidat. Coz my hair type is straight de. Haiz.... NVM! I'll try my best to GROW hair!!! :)
I"M GOING TO HAVE MY HAIR LIKE HERS!

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Tis part is for my gals. :)

Hey, i wanna buy tis V bra they call it. It's for wearing low cuts. The effect is kinda like majiam nv wear bra but can push ur assets until very nice, round n firm. And u now wat, I"M BUYING IT! Haha... Nx time shall wear n let u gals see.. :) Here's a pic of a V bra.

Apart...

2008-03-03T13:30:00.001+08:00
I've got no mood in anything.

JUZ LEAVE ME ALONE~!

I'll be fine gals... :)

BORED~!

2008-02-28T14:45:00.010+08:00
Went out to do some stuff. And started to cam-whore wif my camera. Um.. Quite like the pure white effect.... ^^

BTW, if u guys wan, PSP modifying service, PSP Custom Firmware
upgrading, Unbricking of PSP, please contact this guy.

Name : Jing Xing

Email: tune_swat@hotmail.com

COPYCATS SUX!

2008-02-27T22:29:00.003+08:00
"U wouldn't steal a CAR"

"U wouldn't steal a HANDBAG"

"U wouldn't steal a TELEVISION"

"U wouldn't steal a MOVIE"

"Stealing is against the law. Do not steal off the rights of the producers and the inventors."

Um... this sounds familiar izzen it? It's actually one of the ads shown in every movie threatre. It actually highlights to people not to buy pirated DVDs n VCDs. I believe many of ur have seen this ad.

Today, i'm juz fucking pissed off. Some ppl juz steal ur ideas n put it as THEIR ideas. And they have absolute no shame in doing tt. Perhaps those "guilty" ones will say, "oh, u tink only u can use ppl cannot use meh? Got write ur name meh? U nv buy copywrite n patent wat?".... Blar blar blar.... WELL, I"M JUZ NOT HAPPY OK?! If by leaving the group u can also bring my ideas over there, u r damn fucking wrong! And to those who were once in my group, and also did the same thing, 5 words, GET A LIFE! BE ORIGINAL!

I juz dun understand. Y u guys have the face to put exactly the same ideas inside ur projects. Come on la! Ppl can see lor... Copy also cannot copy nicer. Well, IT SUXS! I hate to say tt but it's the fact. In conclusion, i damn fucking HATE

PS: To those "guilty" ones. If u happen to see my blog n saw this posts. U should noe how i feel. It's juz like ur original of ideas being used n used n USED by other ppl. This kinda feeling juz SUX! Tink bout it!

Back to work again...

2008-02-26T22:05:00.003+08:00
Um... guys, dun worry. i've got a job. Currently working at Millenia walk, Lv2, Harvey Norman. Again, selling that stupid Samsung vacumn. Hate selling that. Now i wanna transfer to AV line. At least, i get to earn much over there. Haiz...

Currently very busy wif my FRONTPAGE project. I tell u, it's driving me nuts! So many problems wif html. But luckily, it's fixed. Thx to Mr Sky. That -look-alike-Mr Chin. Haha... Like father like son. LOL~!

Well, not much of happening things happen recently. I wanna club. YES. Very very much. Miss clubbing wif my gals lots. CLUB!~!

Yeah~

2008-02-19T12:15:00.002+08:00
Um.. went for PR presentation today. Apparently, i did quite well. Haha... Coz i happen to peep at the marks tt Mr Chin gave us. I'm damn happy la. We score rather high. ^^ Yippy!!! * Our hard work has finally paid off, So many days n weeks of BLASM-ing... :)

Anyway, got really tired. Um... had some disputes wif him. NOw i'm really sad. I noe partially it's my fault n i shouldn't have done tt. I'm juz feeling so sry... :(

I got SACKED by Best Denki's Big Boss, Mr Sugimoto. It was a misunderstanding. Cox of some talking after-work n didn't usher customer to find their alarm clock. Haiz.. really suay lor... Got to go now... Byes....

Happy New Year~!

2008-02-14T16:25:00.003+08:00
Um.. bored at home. Not feeling well today. So went to see a doc. Did some routine check-up. And i ned a blood test for my report for diabetes. I"M FUCKING SCARE now... I ned to be poke n extract blood from body. Hate it. I really scare will kana diabetes lor. T.T *hope not...

Um.. saw tis little boy when i'm working.. He's damn fucking cute la.. He's very little only la.. like bout 2 years old lidat... He kp turning his head to which watever directions the car is turning.. Haha.. *cute*

And lastly, i present to u my niece. JUz focus on her.... Haha... ain't she cute?

She's such a darling to me... Love her loads... Haha.. Her name is Hui Xin. :)

Off...

2008-02-07T00:59:00.000+08:00
Hey guys, will be going off to Msia soon...

I'll miss u guys badly...

BTW, I wan to say, i appreciate tt u guys like me. But pls dun spam my tagboard... -_-'''

Anyway, will be back soon.. Take care....

Wondering...

2008-01-28T14:22:00.000+08:00
I'm juz wondering how's my life going to be 10 years down the road. Am i going to be relax n be a tai tai? Or i'll ve to worry bout almost everything n work like mad. But most imptly, i wanna noe if i'm going to be happy.

Like most gal out there. Who doesn't want to find a man to love. Who doesn't want to be loved by ur man. Who doesn't want to lead a comfortable life.. etc.. But the point is, wat r the possibility tt u gonna meet such man lidat. Most are either attached or married. I happen to browse thru mango's blog n found an entry bout women.. U guys can take a look. Coz i kinda agree on wat he said on SOME points.. :]

Fact no.1 - Girls will always have a soft side.Forget about how fierce, tough or rough she is when she's furious and angry. When she cools off her heart will always melt like mashmellows on a BBQ pit. They probably wouldn't show it but somehow they are feeling rather soft and this is their weak points. After an argument or a quarrel, more than often a sweet line of words is enough to completely melt the mellting heart. Why do u think girls are always forgiving guys then?

Fact no.2 - Security and Sincerity wins the day. The predominant reason why we see all sorts of incompatible couples on the streets. I always say good looks buys u a date but it's usually the amount of sincerity and efforts u put in plus how secure she feels about u that wins you her heart. Perhaps you are as good looking as Brad Pitt but u don't have a future as bright as Cristiano Ronaldo or a bank account as big as Bill Gates, so therefore she probably wouldn't want to be with someone whose future is insecure.

Fact no.3 - Girls are naive. Girls have a tendency to think things are as simple as ABC or that things could work out easily and that everything will be alright. They do the most naive things like believing their flirtatious partner's sweet honeyed words, forgiving him and entrusting him with her heart only to get it all broken into pieces soon after when she caught him perform adultery again. They either get influenced or believe easily - one of the weakest points girls possess. Silly silly silly

Fact no.4 - Girls are cute when they are angry. There is a reason why guys tend to laugh and say: "Honey, u look so cute when ur angry u know" and the girl simply do not get it and say: "What? Are u mad or something?" The truth is that when a girl is pissed off, angry or frustrated, their body behavior and facial expressions are somehow cute to guys. But of course it isn't funny when she picks up a chopper......

Fact no.5 - Shopping is every girl's favourite past-time. What do u do when ur down? Shop! What do u do when u've just received ur salary? Shop! What do when u looked into your ready-to-burst wardrobe and feel like it's too 'empty'? Shop! Shopping probably flows in the blood of girls like how sex flows in those of the guys. There's no limit as to what they can buy and there's no indication of when they will stop. Shopping simply makes a girl's day and the worst scenario is when they see a beautiful piece of clothing and they cannot buy - financially or with other reasons involved.

Fact no.6 - Girls love sex as much as guys do. As much as try to deny it (well they won't admit it anyway), it's a fact that girls love sex as much as guys do. The ones who don't are either nerds who haven't been sexually exposed to the adult fun scene or are simply mental up there. In any case, girls can't reveal their sexual preferences or they will be termed as sluts or whores. Hence they will never admit that they love sex - well almost all of them. And to put it in context, like everyone else, girls love having 'a happy ending' when having sex - orgasm. They hate it when their guy 'comes' too early and they are right to feel that way because such guys are insensitive bastards who only care about themselves.

Fact no.7 - The Knight in Shining Armor Syndrome. It must be the fairytales. It must be the dramas and movies. Either way, girls love to feel or dream of themselves as a lovely wounded princess and havng a handsome prince or knight in shining armor come riding on a white horse, grabbing their frail body and riding them down the sunset. The picture they paint in their mind is as fantasy as fairytales but hey fairytales do happen sometimes! It is right to say all girls at 1 point of their lives dream of their knight in shining armor.

Fact no.8 - Girls are bitchy by nature. Shopping aside, gossiping and bitching just about anything under the sun is probably what girls do best and the topics seem endless. It is incredible just how much and what they can bitch about to each other. It is of no surprise then that, girls whine and moan more than their counterparts.In the real world as of current, there seem to be a trend going on amongst girls and it isn't very glam to speak of. Girls are getting demanding these days, expectations are soaring to ridiculous heights and attitudes are slowly but surely changing as well. In fact the number of ugly truths about girls can easily surpass the number of good ones about them.

Haha... now bout the ugly facts bout gals... :[

Ugly Truth no.1 - Girls are gold diggers. And the guys get digged! No matter what they say, all girls are materialistic in some way. Tell me which girl doesn't craves luxury and all the comfort and joy they can bring? And these luxury are most of time in the form of Louis Vuitton, Gucci and Coach among others. In a courtship, the amount of money a girl actually spend on a girl is ridiculously high. These days, girls don't hope for but they expect! Where do these expectations stem from? From seeing their friends having boyfriends who drive big cars, shower them with LVs and all sorts of gifts of course. They need to do a reality check on themselves.

Ugly Truth no.2 - The Princess Syndrome. This is a very good example of a female trend. When one of them wants to be the princess all of them want to be the princess so if this were to be the case we would have a couple of thousands of princesses out there but where are the princes? They have probably watched too much of 'Princess Hours'. While it's perfectly fine for girls to think of themselves as princess because girls have to be treated well, it just isn't right to think they are real princesses and expect things to turn out the way they want or behave like some queen out there. It's this kind of princess attitude that sucks real bad.

Ugly Truth no.3 - Girls are flirts. Yes it applies to those who are in a relationship. When a girl meets a guy who ticks almost all the boxes of her 'mr perfect', chances are she would forget for a moment she's got a boyfriend out there or something and flirt with the new guy. Yes it could be just plain flirting, she may not have any intentions to go any further but still, it's flirting! And when they are caught, they claim it's just socializing and being friendly or that their partners are being 'too sensitive' or do not trust them. Yet when their partners does the same (what goes around comes around), they said it's unfaithfulness and that the poor dude is a big time butterfly/flirt.

Ugly Truth no.4 - Seeing no wrongs. As illustrated above, girls can sometimes see no wrong with themselves. No matter what, they are always right. In an argument, they expect to win and when they can't win verbally, they resort to childish means like throwing tantrums or using manipulative means to make the guy feel that he's commited the most terrible sin which in turn turns him soft and start pampering his princess even though she's the one at fault. I herby declare we guys can no longer stand this sentence: "Because I'm a girl!" To which I say: "So what?"

Ugly Truth no.5 - Girls think they know the world. When in fact they don't. They love to think they know, and refuse to heed advices given or worse still, label the guy as an irritating nanny but when things goes horribly wrong and those pieces of advices came back to haunt them, they are sorry for themselves and expect to be comforted. They promise to listen next time and so on but the next time u tell them something, it goes in 1 side and come out the other. Trying to be too clever thinking they know everythinng especially stuffs about the guys can only be their own downfall.

Ugly Truth no.6 - There is nothing a diamond can't buy
"Can I watch soccer with my guy friends?"
"No! U have to accompany me to go shopping!"
"But I have a present for u....*opens up a box*
"Come back as late as u want ok, enjoy more don't want come back also can!"

Ugly Truth no.7 - Girls are jealous creatures. We should start calling them 'greenies' for the fact that they are always whinning, moaning and most of the time it's due to jealousity. They can even claim it was provoked even though at times it's not.

Ugly Truth no.8 - Girls fantasize about other guys during sex. The next time your girl is on the verge of orgasm with her eyes shut, slightly biting her lips and rocking your 'boat', u have every right to suspect she's probably fantaszing herself riding cowgirl on Brad Pitt or Edison Chen. Or worst, she's probably fantazing herself making out with her former beau who gave her the most unforgettable orgasm in her life. It happens, why not?

Ugly Truth no.9 - The time of the month. The time of the month instantly gives her the rights to be queen for at least 6 or 7 days. "I'm having PMS, don't make me mad" can actually be translated into: "I'm the queen now, and u better do what I say and make me feel like a queenie!"

Ugly Truth no.10 - Dollars and fast cars hooks the hottest babes. They will never admit it. But the crude fact is that girls would rather go out with someone ugly but drives a nice car and is quite well do than to date a good looking hunk who takes public transport and maybe isn't strong financially. It's not a fluke, u look around and u see all these rich ugly bastards with the hottest women. There's a reason, and u've just heard it.

In relationships, what girls want is rather simple - security and happiness. People say girls mature faster than guys but that is not necessary true. Girls tend to be as afraid of commitment as guys do. They probably want a boyfriend instead of a husband. Girls tend to prefer enjoying their youth before settling down with the right guy. Even though they tend to expect alot from their guys without realizing it, what can actually please them or touch their heart is simply anything that is sincere that comes from the guy she likes or love. This simply means happiness.

Well, wat do u gals tink after reading? Haha...

Do i still noe Esther???

2008-01-24T23:47:00.000+08:00
New Year is around the corner... How many of u guys have bought everything that u ned? Um... i haven. Juz wondering wat's happening to me lately. I felt tt i no longer noe myself anymore. I juz felt strange... Maybe someone can tell me y?

I'm out of breath! Everything is pushing me right to my throat. When everything tt is unpleasant coming to me, i knew i had to face it. Anyway, couple of good new juz happen. I no longer have to pay for the loss phone tt i work for at Ingram Micro. My agent paid for me. Phew! Plus, i was offer a job for $8 per hour juz by picking up calls. Well, not too bad huh!

Well people, i'm juz wondering how this year is going to turn out. A good year for me or jux another year of bad-luck like last year. But i knew it wasn't going to be easy. At least, i got to wait Mr Sim to ORD! He promised me many many things. Which it's too good for me to believe n accept. Watever the case, i'll juz wait n see. A life of luxury or a life of miseries.

I suddenly hate working so much. I juz wanna be treated like a sugarbaby... :[

Randoms

2008-01-22T14:56:00.000+08:00
In classroom now. Bored is the word. Mind juz kp swirling n turning. 2 voice from my heart deep down within, telling me in different modes n tones. Hate it. Hack!

How does biking along east coast, watching stars n talking bout almost anything ard the world sounds. Nice n swett huh! I tink after so many problems occur one after another, it's time to slow down the pace, take a look ard, n listen to wat ur heart has long to tell u. Below the sun, under the moon, stars twinkling, leaves rustling, cool breeze n the momentum swashing of the sea waves. Perhaps at tt point, it's the most enjoyable thing. Relax n calm. -Perfect-

Nth beats better den coming close wif the nature. Where minds n hearts beats one. Perhaps one day, there might be a twist in fate. Everything seems to turn again. It's how life goes huh? Standing along the coast, shouting at the sea, follow by cries n confessions. Lastly, smiling n await for a new beginning in life to come.

In pain...

2008-01-18T22:54:00.000+08:00
My wounds is killing me! ARGH!!!

Know wat, i'm tired to say how i got hurt. Is juz tt my wounds is getting bad from worst. From yellow colour become purple, now black mixture of red!

Juz accidentally bump the corner of the table n guess wat, some blood came out wif a little pus. GROSS lor!!! In case u guys haven see how *jia lat*, i'll show u the pics T_T...

The first pic is the most PAINFUL one!!! Actual wounds is darker. *sob*

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Next, if u guys haven eaten dinner, don't watch! It's 1000 times more gross than my pic. Even u had ur dinner, prepared to puke. When i saw tis video, i was like speechless n my hair stands right tip top! Juz after i watch the first few mintues of the video, i went to ve dinner. -_-''' In the end, i didn't even touch the whole plate of curry n sweet and sour pork.

Click the link to preview the video:
http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/

Look guys, juz look at how pityful this animals are. I juz wanna bash those inhumane beings. Juz how BLACK is their heart to treat them lidat. *sign*

Goodbye~

2008-01-14T22:44:00.000+08:00
Went home today n saw my mum packing up stuff. As usual, her nagging came before i stepped into my room to put my bags. -_-'''

So i changed n went to clean my tables, drawers etc....

As i was clearing, i noticed many things that i bought last time. Hello kitty stuff... Almost all was bought by him... Cards that he paid, items he bought... In fact, the whole lot is from him. Memories juz came flashing by... Until i came upon my corner, 2 bouquet of flowers. It was actually from him on Valentine's day. I didn't throw it away coz i felt tt it has sentimental values. But after some pursuation from my sis, i decided to let it go. My sis threw it away for me... Before she throw it, i took a picture of each...

First: 2nd Year, Second: 3rd year

Not forgetting he spend hundreds of dollars on the Hello Kitty Chocolates. I juz can't bear to eat it. And now, i got to throw it away coz it got moulds... :(

Those chocolates are so so nice to eat. Coz i tried at the shops that time...

Well, i ve to admit tt i cried. I mean those were the memories i had before... Anyway, now i've got this special guy wif me.

Mr Sim.

Even thought he has really got nth much for me, but i believe his love for me was there. I juz hope tt everything will be fine. I'm not sure bout wat will he react if he sees this post. Angry perhaps? I juz wanna let him noe tt perhaps, everything is over. Like i say, the book has already written, -The End-. Right now, i'm awaiting for a new book which is still on composing.

It's juz the begining. And i hope it will carries on. For no matter wat happen, i juz hope tt we shall be side by side, accompanying each other. For now deep in my heart, i noe that i've got smthg to say to you, and that is, I LOVE YOU.

Loving you always, Mr Sim

CLUB MOOD - ON~!

2008-01-10T23:38:00.000+08:00
OMG!!! My clubbing mood is so so turn on now... WTF!

Thx to my gals huh. Haiz... i actually din club like for bout a month??? Now, Reg n Ting's clubbing mood is also turn on. They decided to set on 8Feb. Which is on CNY Day 2. Hehe... I wanna dance! DANCE!!!!!!!! *Yeah we go, yeah we go*~!

Listen to my fav reggae songs n my blood juz gush in n out. Feel like dancing to every beat. Bet Ting n Reg is feeling the same too.... Um.. been so damn busy wif projects. It juz come one after another. Please giv ask more hands n more brain cells! -_-

Recently, me n my gals are becoming more open-minded. We kp talking bout ***. Lol... i dunno la... But i juz felt tt it's normal. Coz i believe MOST teens have experience on that. But wat me n my gals love was PAINTING!!! Wahaha!!! We admit it! WE LOVED TO BE PAINT! Haha... Den one of my gal, Fen. She n her bf always *toot*. So i gave her a name. Fuck Addict! haha... anyway, i believe gals are high *** drive being. If guys wanna play, we give them hell~! Muahahaha.....

*true* :)

I wanna dance... So badly...

2008 updates~!

2008-01-09T17:05:00.000+08:00
It's 2008 now!!!

Here to update some post on 2007. Um... My birthday!!!

We went to Marina to ve steamboat!!!

Me and REGINA!!! Both of us have the same surname n same birthday!!! We had 3 cakes!!! ^^

My memories...

Mr Sim bought ice cream chocolate cake for me. And gave me roses. Thx! Love you! Muacks!

My girlfriends who turn up on my birthday... Love u guys loads!!!

At cine.... CAMWHORING again!!!

So tata.... tt's juz a FEW photos tt i have... Wahaha... Love my frenz n enjoy myself alot that night. Haha...

It's 2008 now, dunno wat to say. Mr Sim went to Thailand to do some things. I'm missing him... Haiz... Btw, sry for lack of updates... Lol.. Will update more often...

Um... Reg wans to club. Heard tt it's 8Feb. Well, i wan go!! Dance Dance Dance!! I miss that!!!

Esther reaches nineteen...

2007-11-29T00:11:00.000+08:00
BOO guys!

TODAY IS MY NINETEEN BIRTHDAY DA SHOU!

Wahaha... will be celebrating wif my girlies n frenz. Yippy. Haha... Going to Marina to eat steamboat n watch movie later. Hope i'll be given surprises...

I yearn tis day quite long already!!! Pending and pending. Finally!! Haha.... I'm so so happy. My Mr Sim called me at 12am to wish me happy birthday! Wootz!~!

-LOVES YOU LOVES YOU LOVES YOU -

My memories - PDOs

2007-11-24T00:16:00.000+08:00
I'm having a terrible headache now. But i juz can't slp. I'm pondering over many many things. Money, friends n relationships. Everythings juz comes n tumbled on my way.

Money issues is often the hardest n easiest to solve. Borrow easy but return hard. It's always the case. But dun worry frenz, i'll return. For i'm a person tt kp my words. At least tt's wat i'm going to be. MOney seems to fly away so easily from my hands. Haiz.... I wanna buy a money locker!! OMG! Muz use the word buy. Means use money again.. -_-'''

FRIENDS. These 7 letters were once part of my memories. The PDOs. The nine of us were as close as brothers n sisters. Eating, playing, skipping lessons n studying together. 9 different characters, backgrounds n completely strangers, met. WE r the most fun loving, most pro active n always the limelight wherever we go...

Spending hours doing it... Juz making the borders is giving me nuts!~! -_-

I dunno wat's tt big gap btw us. Seriously, i DUN wan these to happen. For i mean wat i say. I stand out n say it's ME! To my frenz who are reading these:

Victor - Sometimes, i really tink u r nice. U r commited in watever u do n always try ur very best to complete it. For that, u r very commentable. BUT, do u noe sometimes, ur actions n words tend to hurt ppl? U may tink it's a small issue, but as ur frenz, we MIND wat tt's said out from ur mouth. :(

Bernard - Among us all, u r one of the quiestest n mature type of person. U aim high n make sure u met ur require standards. U r those tt wans to mark out smthg in ur life. U dun wan juz to be an ordinary guy if u were given chances to. Therefore, u r so contradict now. BUT, sometimes, things will not go ur way. And things are not as smooth as u predict. HOwever, it doesn't mean IT'S THE END. U still have a long long way to ur goal. U ve friends ard u n i noe there will be there for u. Some actions tt u do, DO affect us. In many atimes, ur silence, ur disappearance cause us to be confused. U left questions marks on our head. We juz wanna be a friend where u can lean on. :(

Jeremy - Haha... U r the best partner tt i can ever find. My jokes n ur jokes can really make them ROFL. There can nv be silence when me n u is ard. Tt's y we became frenz the very first day. :) U r special. At least, u gave laughter to everyone ard u. U r always the HAPPY NUT. However, some "unintentional" of ur jokes n comment do give a -jab- to ppl ard u. U may tink is a comment or word. BUT, it's a hurt. U r our frenz, therefore, we dun mind. In fact, we r used to it. DO U NOE, U ve left a deep impression n a very special place in everybody's heart? I'll tell u y. Juz imagine, when we ve all left, 9 of us would definately tink of ur lame jokes n laugh to ourselves. THAT's for sure. And i noe everyone will agrees. Think bout wat i said. :(

Xue Yu - U r so quiet!!! Haha... A very good gal. In everyone's eyes. U may seems quiet but there are many times, u are tinking bout things. Things tt's in ur life. Though u r not a loud person, but we still love to include u wif us. Reasons, ur splashing of cold water on me n jeremy's jokes is often the biggest jokes. LOL... everyones will laugh like mad. However, it's not good to be so quiet. WE dunno wat u r tinking. And if words we said or any of us said something tt hurt u, WE DUN NOE. If some actions we did tt makes u shun us or wat so ever, we dun mean it. Maybe i'm too sensitive, but watever the case, tis is wat i observed. :(

Serene - Um... the eldest among all. Always ve the Da Jie Da pattern. A role model to us as well as somebody whom we can concide our problems to. Capable n far-sighted. U r one tt is able to do major things. One tt makes sure everything is on proper place n THINGS getting done. For tt, i'm sure everyone can vouched that. BUT, i heard tt there's some misunderstandind btw us n u. We didn't cast u alone. It's juz tt u are often not in sch. And when u came back, u r juz not aware of wat's happening. And we dunno how to convey things to u. If we really make u feel strand, den i guess it's really a misunderstanding. Juz think of the Royal Empire. The team where the whole school of teachers and students noe bout the 5 of us. The leader who makes countless effort in seeing us getting things done n in time. It's YOU. Serene. So why do we wanna outcast u? :(

*The above comments is from me. Esther Chang Ru Hui tt said it. I mean no harm in reprimanding ppl or judging ppl. It's juz some words tt i would like to say to the PDOs. Words from my heart. Had no intention of hurting anyone or stabbing anyone. Pls be objective n think bout it. Are our friendships going to be the past? *

I noe i'm no angel either. Therefore, i welcome u guys to speak to me. Wondering y i didn't wrote Ting, Fen n Reg? Lol... Cause we told each other off before that already. Haha... Jk... I really hope the 9 of us is back again. Everyone, including me, pls tink bout each other's mind n action. For everything tt we do, DOES AFFECT each and everyone else.

I'm juz wondering something. I suddenly thought of smthg which it do really really make sense. Womens are the most mature when they met a guy whom she dun love. BUt the most childish when being wif a guy she's deeply in love. Agrees? Haha... I guess as time goes by, i'll know wat i wan. Being wif the guy i love. Being childish when i'm wif him. Letting him dote on me. Day by day, side by side. I'm juz thinking of a fairytale. The princess n the prince lived happily ever after. Um... sweet. Izzen it? :)

My fav bike

2007-11-19T22:25:00.000+08:00
Was browsing Ber's blog n happen to saw one of his pic bikes.

It's -SUZUKI GSXR1300 HAYABUSA-!!! Lol...

Well, i love tis bike. Coz got some reasons to it. Um... Anyway, It's a bike tt i SHOULD sit for once in my life. Haha... Kk.. I'm off to do my stuff. :)

Lessons as usual...

2007-11-19T14:55:00.000+08:00
Having lessons as usual. Haiz... my mood to study seems to ve disappear after the holidays. I'm either blogging, or listening to songs. Work, home and slp. Tt's my current life. Boring huh! Anyway, glad to ve my Mr Sim who is there wif me. He's much much better now. Our relationship seems to ve settle down n it's getting sweeter n sweeter as day comes. Reason is he really loves me now. Same goes for me. :)

My birthday is left wif 10 days. Um.. i'll now type out wat i wan! I juz wan to ve Delfi Choco Mint sweets. I wan 2 box. Currently i'm craving for it. Juz like those small green, -choco filled-peas. It's like so addicting tt u can't stop popping into ur mouth. Haha... I also wan W910i. I wan more dresses n shoes. I wan to get my hair cut n dyed. Haiz... Forget it!

Reg's clubbing mood seems to ve uprise again. Lol... she kp requesting to go clubbing. Phuture huh?! Dunno leh... I dunno can go anot. Anyway, it's up for them to decide la. As long as Mr Sim is wif me. Going home after lesson. It's a edict pass from Mr Sim. LOves Loves Loves*

I wan i wan...

2007-11-18T00:32:00.000+08:00
Been some days since i've last updated. NO phone as usual. It's really damn shit. Anyway, got to get my W910i no matter wat. Coz i like tt phone. It's nice la! Haha....

But no money. -_-'''

My birthday is ard the corner. 29 NOv. Um.... wonder how am i going to spend my birthday. I hope it'll be a memorable one. Going to hit 19 soon!!! ARgh!!!! Hate it. Years juz passed so fast. Me n my girlies ve stick to together for bout 2 years. Really love them to bits. Enjoy every moment spend wif them for they really influence in me n my thought. For each of them ve their own ways of tinking n doing. Indeed, i've become a better person after knowing them. THX GALS!!! Muacks!

Hope u gals would make me n Reg's birthday a happening one! Hahaha..... :)

LOST!

2007-11-13T12:15:00.000+08:00
I LOST MY HP AGAIN!!!!

Wat the hell?! Haiz.. right now. I've got NO phones wif me. So pls stop calling n sms to me. Coz i can't reply. I'm juz so tired of how ppl can be so irritating. " Esther, y u din call me, y din msg me, y tis y tt." Eh hello?! I dun giv a damn k? Pls fcuk off!

I hate the person tt steal my phone. So cheap still wan take! Idiot! I'm right now very very pissed off. Dun provoke me. I WARNED! I mean it. I wan see blood gushing out. I mean it again.

U talk wif ur ass huh~!

2007-11-11T01:03:00.000+08:00
Hey faggots, if u guys are unhappy bout me, come straight RIGHT into my face. COME TO ME! But make sure u come u ve reasons to come. I'm not into call water call fire those types of historical ah beng era. Oh pls... -_-'''

Btw, i'm for who i am. I dun ve to pls anybody. My looks, my pics n my personality is my business. I wan scold BITCH to who is my problem. If u care so much, wan care bout how many hairs i ve?! AND dun come here to kbkp my girls. Why? u no frenz ar? Or all ur frenz are dogs n cats? My frenz back me up cannot meh?! At least tt day is i'm the only ONE confront her. I din ask my gals come right? Btw, if u say u r not SN or MAD, den y u kpo? Ask ppl's frenz dun kpo, u the big time kpo here. Contradict huh?!

SO in conclusion, SHUT THE FCUK UP!~!~!

Been busy working tis few days. Many sickening things ve happen. Anyway, i'm juz so totally sick of how childish ppl can get. RIGHT? NOONEYOUKNOW?!

Cursed tt mutha fucking BITCH!~

2007-11-07T12:07:00.000+08:00
I'm so fucking pissed off. There's a bitch in my class tt is unhappy bout me. "Accused" of being smthg tt i've not done.

She said tt i'm not doing my job. And being biased to some individuals. HELLO??!!!! Open up ur cock eyes n see! Nobody have comments in me in class, only YOU! Well, i've already mention, i'll not let anybody juz come n climb onto my head. So i shouted back at her. I questioned on everything tt she accused me of. She juz kp quiet. At the end, i shouted "BITCH" at her. EVERYONE WAS SHOCK N LOOKED AT ME STUNNED. No one ever saw my temper blow up before. I was really angry at tt point of time. In the end, tt CCB help to cool us down n explain our issues together. Anyway, i -hack care- her! I dun even bother.

In class now. Wif my girlies as usual. They are talking bout clubbing issues tml. Heard tt they r going Phuture. But guess i wun be going. Haiz... anyway, i feel down now...

Hei Se Mao Yi

2007-11-06T02:59:00.000+08:00
I can't slp.... Smthg is bothering me... I guess only tis song would describe best how i'm feeling now. Gals n guys, if ever once u feel kinda lost while missing somebody, listen to tis song. U'll nv regret.

Hei Se Mao Yi

Thx brothers...

2007-11-04T23:38:00.000+08:00
Went to Msia to see my grandma. She was so anxious to see me. The moment she sees me, she scolded me. -_-''' Well, coz there quite some time i went to visit her. But as usual, she wants me sit wif her n talk to me. Basically repeating wat i say n topics. She asked me a question, "r u happy now?" i was like stunned for awhile. But i juz skipped it.

Carried my baby niece. She was so cute. At tt point, felt like having a baby of my own. But i guess tt got to wait. My cousins were there as usual. 3 of my brother dragged me to a room. Asking bout my life, problems...etc. They shared quite alot of things wif me. For guy's thinking are hard to understand too. I really LISTENED. Coz i do felt it make sense.

Really missed the days when the whole bunch of us went to forest, climb trees, cross rivers n playing n fighting. I mean those r like a memories to me. They SEE me grow up. My problems n thoughts. All concern bout them. But today, i guess they notice a change in me. Before i left, i burst out crying. For they noe wat really happened. Hugged me n consoled me like when i was a young gal. Telling me jokes n pat my head. They r such a dear to me. Even closer den blood brothers.

I'll kp tt in mind. Search for my own happiness. For not everything might turn out u wan to be. Learn to let go is as good as giving a chance to make urself happy. I guess i will...

Lower ur expectation...

2007-11-02T01:55:00.000+08:00
Watched Stardust wif Mr Sim. It was a superb movie. Nice.. :)

I can't slp now. I dunno y. Can anybody tell me how close a guy n a gal should behave when they are outside. Um... holding hands n hug? Once in a while a little kiss??? And how bout being turn down when u tried to be close to the guy u love. Or being "rejected" to be his settling down partner. Words which seems nth but pierce right thru ur heart. Guess there are some things tt I can never wan it my way. Never.

Felicia, one of my college at Tangs said smthg which i totally agreed wif her. She says i'm those tt neds to be showered wif love and being pampered like a princess. Tt's me. I nodded. Bcoz i'm always very relying on my other partner. I wan my partner to be dominant n taking care of me. Well, maybe i should change. Ting was right. DUN rely on guys. Be independent. Felicia is also one tt DUN depends on guys.

I'm juz wondering should i be lidat. Perhaps one thing tt could make me feel better is dun ask for so much. Dun expect anything romantic or touching things from a man. Coz the higher the expectation, the percentage of letting u down would be higher too. Maybe i should juz tink bout other stuff. But ironically, guys ve MUCH more expectation from a gal. They expect tis n tt, but NEVER do they ask themselves if they are as good as wat they expected. Again, never.

Wanting to go esplanade. Guess i'll go alone nx time.

I'm on MC... :(

2007-10-31T23:52:00.000+08:00
Was really sick tis morning n thus, not able to turn up for sch. Went to see doc n the report doesn't seems good. Gastric problems occured, liver not in condition, n low blood sugar. A total of 4 days MC. But i requested for 2. She said muz ve enough rest if not, condition would be bad. Anyway, took the med n rush to my workplace immediatly. *I had no choice!* I ned to work for money!!!*

My working kakis were very concern bout me. Coz bout yday's inccident. Anyway, i'll rest well ya? Dun worry. Juz feel a little disappointed today. Mr Sim came to look for me. Came n went off. Nth much to be happy bout. :( I was juz so yearning to see him. Bout i'm not sure if he does.

Y can't guys juz be more sensitive to a gal's feeling. Every single action do, every single word speak DO affect a gal. Especially if the guy holds an important place in the gal's heart. Guys ve big ego but gals are emotional. Pls kp tt in mind. We are the most emotional creatures. We ned to be treated wif care n love. While guy's ned to be treated wif respect n tactfully. Guy speaks n do things wif logic, but we do things according to our own feelings. Therefore, guys, please use ur heart to tink. Whatever things tt u did or say, izzit right.

Got to work tml. Sianz... I wonder could things be any worst tt wat i'm feeling now.

I ned batteries!!!

2007-10-30T09:18:00.000+08:00
I'm basically half awake. I'm juz so dead beat. Physically n mentally state is really weak. Can anybody be there???

Saw one of my long-lost buddy on train today. Man! He really changed! Still as tall as ever. Looks are getting more matured. One thing tt he has not changed is tt HE STILL PINCH MY FACE!!! Lol...

We talked alot on the train. Talking bout our current life n some aspect in our life. BOTH of us really moulted. Perhaps, its cruelity in tis society made us a tougher person. :) We departed at Outram. Coz he needed to go Tanjong Pagar to settle some things. He's studying in SP. So he suggested to meet up n go sch together. Well, got to consider bout tt. I'm lazy. Lol...

Got to work later. Haiz.. Tired. No choice. Anyway, i'll hang on to it. Coz i noe Mr Sim is there for me. :)

Money can MAKE n BREAK a person

2007-10-29T22:20:00.000+08:00
Din go to sch today. Coz i'm really tired at work. Haiz... so many things ve happened. I've yet to settle myself down n one juz comes after another.

Met my boss n he complains tt he dunno which place to put me. Coz Vivo n Tang wans me to be there. Lol... Haha... I'm popular huh... :)

I've got so many money issues to settle. I really feel like hanging myself. Anyway, juz hope tt the tied up days will soon be over.

Anyway, as long as Mr Sim is wif me, i will be fine.

Misses my girlies now... Um... my birthday is coming. I wan nth but a winning lottery ticket. ^^

CK Tang or Best Denki???

2007-10-29T01:08:00.000+08:00
Went to work. As usual. Work at CK Tang today. Well, it was fun too! Haha.. those guys there played Raggae n RnB like nobody's business. Again, almost turn Techno Bay into a dancefloor. Lol.. Some of them really noe how to dance. ^^

Todays kinda slacking. But i still sell. Lol... Haha... Commission not bad huh...

I might work at CK Tang for long. Y? Because those guys called my boss up n requested me to work at there! haha... they say they wan me there. Now now now... My guys at Best Denki ( Vivo) wans me to be there too. I'm in popular demand. Wahaha.. But seriously, there really lack of gals. Coz is like both place got bout 6-8 guys per counter. Only me the only gal. Lol... They wan GIRLS!!!!

Anyway, something happened today after my work. Which i dun feel like talking bout it. Guess lacked of communication bah. Anyway, it's going to be a tiring day. Will be working everyday after my sch ends. Haiz.... :X

Hello Kitty ~

2007-10-28T01:14:00.000+08:00
Went to work today as usual. Saw many couples today! I mean it's not even 1402. Juz tt train carriage got bout 6 couples. All kissing n hugging each other. Whisper wif each other, playing wif each other..etc *Basically wat "normal" couples do. Guess wat, i'm full of envy. Haiz...

Went to Vivo Best Denki as usual. BUT!!! Tis time round, i'm going to take back bout my working place SUX. Coz it's fantastic TODAY!!! Well, i'm the only gal there *as usual* n whole bunch of guys there. They r real nice n swt to me. Most imptly is they r clubsters!!! Wahaha... today, my workplace seems to be like a dancefloor. We were playing RnB n Raggae damn loud. And we dance! Lol.... It was god damn shiok! They kp tempting me to go St James which is at Vivo. But nonononono..... Hahs! Saw tt fcuking "ba gay". Lol... i found out tt those guys dun like him too. We are on the same boat.. :)

BUt good thing dun last. The next moment, my boss called to ask me to go CK Tang IMMEDIATELY! Coz he ned ppl there urgently. No choice but to bid farewell wif my boys. Was being hugged unexpectedly by one of the guys. Guess he too western??? Anyway, CK Tang seems not as fun as Vivo. Haiz.. kinda bored. Anyway, ppl there seems to be alright.

Met Ting after my work. Was actually planning to meet Mr Sim. But he was tired n so it was pulled down. Anyway, was the lightbulb of the night. Coz Ting was wif her bf.

HELLO KITTY FIESTA IS AT TAKA UNTIL 7 NOVEMBER!!!!!!

I was there n i wish i can take out a gun n rob those hello kitty stuff! I wan them but i had no money to buy. At the point of time, i really feel like crying. I really did. Coz so many gals was there looking and buying. I was there to look. Feel so depressed coz i was unable to buy things tt i really really love. BUt wat to do? In debts now. Juz hope things will get better.

I'm just a gal that lost everything, Goodthing tt i still ve my Mr Sim. :)

Working SUX~!

2007-10-27T01:00:00.000+08:00
Went to Vivo City to work today. Well, the environment totally sux. They r so strict bout attire, behaviour, pose n blar blar blar.... In conclusion, all craps!!! :x$@#$@

There's tis particular guy tt's always picking up on me. Ask me stand properly, cannot drink water at the counter, dun lean at the counter... etc.... Kaoz eh! He really tink he god damn big ar! See his face is like damn sick. Like bugs bunny.. Coz he got the "ba gae". Lols...

Still prefer working at Live Power Hub. Ppl there r so damn nice. especially my darling, Cherrie!! :)

Well, today a guy bought 2 speakers from me. Guess wat, after paying, he came over n talk to me. I mean he kinda -flirt- wif me. Lol... He ask for my no. But i didn't give. Guess wat, he shuff his no to me instead. Ask me to giv him a call. Well, i guess i wun call bah. Coz... i dunno y. His looks was rather above average. But i jun dun wan to call. :)

Sales today was not very good. Hate the damn working environment. That ba gae SUX big time. :X I'm going to find out his name n post big big here to let everyone see. Humpf!

YOU! Yes YOU!

2007-10-25T19:04:00.000+08:00
Was feeling very horrible juz few days back. Over some matters... But now, i'm totally feeling great!

Watched Superbad n it was so hilarious! Lol... I mean it was kinda explicit but it was funny! I juz jp laughing throughout the whole show. Um.. life hasn't been any better now. Wif Mr Sim. :)

NOw! I wanna burst out my anger. I'm juz so fcuking angry bout my schmates. There's tis Muslim gal kp asking bout whether i had mark her attendance. Well, since u r so bothered if i had mark urs, y not u be the chairman of the class? And she always had the stupid fcuk-up face. Tt's none gal none guy's look. IN conclusion, she juz sux big time. Always talking bout ppl's back. Worst, dun dare admit. Lol...

One is the chickenback side gang. Today kana scolded by my frenz Ridz. She's was being scold "fcuk lah!" Lol... so shoik i tell u. Tinking tt she might ask her cousins as back up. Well, stop living in ur historical ah bang era. Wonder y u r being kept in ur cave for so long huh.

Anyway, u gals better dun provoke me. U still haven seen the worst of me yet. Try me! And i bet some nosy pokers will ask u gals to read my blog. I say it, i admit it! To those u noe who u r, __ fcuk u! Dun assume tt i'm always nice n u can climb over my head. I'm nice is becoz i wan to. Not to polish whose boots. Coz i dun see the need. Wanna find me to verify? I WELCOME YOU! Make sure u come to me urself. Dun ask one herd over n act as if u r gansters. If dun dare, shut tt ass-looking mouth of urs. Sry to those innocent tt's reading my blog. I had to be so crude is becoz i had ENOUGH of their attitude! Anyway, i'm still nice. :)

Tml gonna start work. Haiz... Hate working. Coz it's so bored. But no choice. Ned to work to earn money. IN heavy debts now. -_- Hope tml's day would be a better one. Cheers!

It's coming back...

2007-10-23T11:59:00.000+08:00
I dunno wat's my feeling right now. I noe tt he's rather upset. I'm feeling so horrible right now. It seems like nightmare is coming back again.

HOw i wish to disappear temporary. Maybe juz tt sec i'm vanish. I doesn't wan to face the pain anymore. It's tearing me apart when we are so far each other. Perhaps time shall heal everything.

Let me escape thru my darkest time of my life...

WE are in LOVE!

2007-10-21T20:25:00.000+08:00
Was totally pissed off during afternoon. I mean sometimes, he can juz be so inconsiderate. From SengKang to IMM. How long does it takes. Anyone tried before? It'll take bout an hour plus. Reaching there was greeted by some "black" face. I mean it totally SUX -_-!!!

HOwever, Mr Sim apologise n i accepted it. Maybe he's juz too tired or stressed up at work. Kk.. i accepted tt. But not often ya?! Um... i wan my phone seriously. Coz using tt stupid antique phone is damn embarassing. One of my girlies, Fen kp playing my "ringtone". Idiot her. __

Haiz.. Mr Sim, will u be much more passionate??? WE R IN LOVE! Not in war. Be more passionate la. Dun always so cool ya? Anyway, thx for leaving a big "I LOVE YOU" in my tag. ME TOO! Muacks!

Trying?? I guess...

2007-10-20T23:17:00.000+08:00
Was waken up by some smses. *open up one eye* and took a peep. It was smses from Mr Sim. It was totally unbelievable!!! Well, he seldom sms me in the morning. Plus! He's really swt. I mean ALL of his sms were really swt n nice.

Seriously at tt point of time, i can't believe tt it was him. I really felt so blissful n loved. Meet him up at IMM for lunch n dinner. Met Jeremy as well @Watson. Lol... He was selling toothpaste. Haha... BUt somethings is juz not there. I mean some passionate n affectionate is not there. Perhaps he's juz not use to it. :( GUess he tried???

Went home STRAIGHT after his dinner. -_- Haiz... he's juz lidat ...

Regretted...

2007-10-15T09:25:00.000+08:00
Haiz... i'm sad... really sad. Sick too...

I dunno wat to do.. Perhaps, time shall heals everything. Thx girlies for staying me by my side. I'll be fine n alright.

Club again~

2007-10-10T14:44:00.000+08:00
Yippy! Would be going clubbing tonight at Phuture. Wahaha... Going wif my girlies.

Um... Mr Sim would be coming along. FINALLY! Tot tt he wun go n also not letting me go. Cherrie my girlies is bring her bf as well. Looks like tonight we gonna enjoy ourselves lots. Bought quite alot of things these few days. A top, a bronze pumps n 2 hair clips. Love them to bits.

Will update pics after tonight. Anyway, have a happy night. Enjoy urself! :)

Trust n Doubts

2007-10-07T00:42:00.000+08:00
Haiz... well well... i'm recently not happy. Perhaps not feeling secure or lack of being dote on. Everything seems weird n not in proper place.

Trust. How much trust can u giv to a person? I dunno. For me, as long as he's sincere in asking me to trust him, I WILL. I believe is a mutual thing. It would be really swt n nice when both trust one another without doubts. BUT wat if one doesn't wan to trust the other party? The relationship would spell doom eventually. Having doubts is already kinda serious. NOT trusting is even worst.

I really dunno. ARGH!!! Y doesn't he trust me. Y? I mean juz because his ex gf treats him lidat, he assume tt i'll be lidat too. Actions tt i did lead him not to trust me. WTH?! I din betray him or wat. BUt y? Guys sometimes can really drive a gal crazy. I feel weak again. Everything seems wrong n nonetheless, is not swt at all.

Again, i yearn for hugs n kisses. Is me. Esther wans to be loved, pampered n dote. Is tt so difficult???

Love = Sacrifice

2007-10-06T01:18:00.000+08:00
Sacrifice. Does anyone really noe the true meaning of tis? In a relationship, i believe one party sacrifice for one another. But let us put it tis way... "Does ur sacrifice worth for ur love? Is it worth?!" I dunno how would others say but i noe i've encounter MANY who i dunno izzit worth or not.

How bout tis word Appreciation? Does ur partner appreciate how much u've done for him/her? I dunno too. Many a times... i knew MANY ppl take things for granted. They JUZ DUN appreciate how much he/she had done for her/him.

How bout an object now? A weighing scale. In a relationship, often one side weights HEAVIER. Any objections? Well, i've always know i weight on the heavier side. -_-''' Giving in too much... Perhaps, it's a norm for every relationships.

Um... it's late now n i juz can't slp. I've done much. At least i tink so. Tidy up my hse n went to his hse n tidy for him. But when he's back, the attitude - orh, ok lor- pattern is there? Y guys wun -give a tight hug, deep kiss n most important tt most gal wan to hear" i love you"- pattern??? I DUNNO!!! Well, maybe he's tired. Coz i noe he really is. I understands n concern. BUT! Will he do the same???

To add on, i hate or detest guys tt often -give up-. I've met n encounter guys say," i know i'm not good, if u tink he's good, den u be wif him lor!" Well, FUCK U! Wat excuses is tt?! Juz as the gal is begining to fall for u, n u said tis to her. Is equivalent giving a tight slap on the gal's face. I mean y give up?! Dun u tink u should prove to her tt u r alot more better den the guy because u LOVE HER! Can't u assure tt U can giv ur gal AS MUCH LOVE as she desire? Den in the first place, y say i love you to her n make her urs? Well, damn it! I'm really pissed off when guys say tt. Is like giving excuses for u to ditch the gal by giving her a beautiful ending.

Um... will be working tml. Same place. Sianz... gals.. do rmb to look for me. Misses u gals lots.

Wed~ Phuture Night

2007-10-05T13:14:00.000+08:00
Hips hips hips!~! haha.. went clubbing wif my girlies on Wed at Phuture. Had lotsa fun! Hell ya! LOTS OF FFFFUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNN~~~~!!!!

Saw a couple of my frenz but i chose not to walk over. Lol... maybe to avoid unwanted misunderstanding. Starting, the music wan kinda Rnb n a little blues. Until bout 12 plus den it was Raggae n most of all, my fav hip hop. Music was fantastic!!!Wahahaha!!!

Ting's frenz ask us to join them n true enough, we had lotsa fun. Ting was hysterical!!! Lol!!! She's god-damn hot! Dance wif Mr Sim but he seems not turn on. -_-''' dunno y... A couple of times when me n him went to the dancefloor, many wolves came in. But looks like i've disappointed them. Lol... Mr Sim seems to be the gleeful one. Haha... Anyway, really enjoy myself tt night. I SUPER DUPER LUVES DANCING!!!

How i wish to ve more clubbing session wif my girlies. But.. haiz... Hope Mr Sim will allows me to. AND HOPES HE"LL COMES ALONG! He's not naughty at all. :X Anyway, my boss told me tt i'll be working back at Bugis. OH NO!!! Haiz.. girls, u noe wat liao right? haiz.. wat to do? not i wan de ma...

Um... another clubbing session "MIGHT" be coming. Thx to ting ya? Lol... Mr Sim might not be happy bout it. Lol...

BLOG REVIVED!!!!

2007-10-01T01:45:00.000+08:00
FINALLY!!! I'm back. My com is ready!!! Lol... my dust in my blog is one- inch thick. Lol...

Anyway, talk more bout my life ya? Haiz... i dunno wat's got into me. So many persuasions of my girlies n frenz. I DUNNO WAT TO DO!!! I guess i really ned time to tink. To tink which is really the choice tt i'll not regret.

Look! I'm not asking tt my Mr Right have to be 5 or 6 Cs. I juz want an equal amt of LOVE, care n concern. At least, shows tt u DO care. Now gals, dun u wish the same too? I really hate it when guys uses excuses like, "i'm so tired", tml i got work", i no mood" bla bla bla.... CRAPS! U r not tired when u go out wif frenz, u -hack care- ur work when u turns out late at night, ur mood is always turns on when u wanna chill out wif ur buddies. HELLO!!! This is ur girlfriend! UR WIFE TO BE!!! Now i'm talking bout serious relationships.

However, most guys makes the same mistakes n i believe u gals are nodding ur head right now. But wat's the use now, its gone. Perhaps i'm always the one giving in TOO MUCH in a relationships n I"M DEFINITELY SICK AND TIRED of it. I wan to be pamper like a princess. I wan to be loved. I wan to be look upon to. I wan to stay in ur heart. I wan to be ur treasure. I wan ur everything!!!! Well, perhaps TIME shall prove everything.

Anyway, juz finished working at Bugis Junction -Live Power Hub- TIRED! Haha... old already. lol... Um... now my blog is speckling clean. Will be back for more updates... :)

Click the link... Thx ya... :)

2007-09-18T21:14:00.000+08:00
Pls go to tis website n browse thru it.... It's my sis's project.. :)

Click here -->> http://www.wretch.cc/blog/australiazoo

Flying soon~

2007-08-29T09:23:00.000+08:00
I'll be flying to Korea soon... Haiz.. on sunday... Argh!!! Somehow, i dun "really" feel very excited... :(

Um... maybe becoz i knew i did not bring enough money to shop. Tt's y the *mood* like kinda dampen. I mean... if i knew tis were to happen, i would not ve promise my frenz to go... But wat's the use of saying all these... I'll be flying away soon... Aww...

Many things ve happen to my life recently. Confused, Contradicting n can't make up my mind. Now i really want to thx all my darling aka BFF aka girlies... Haha... *Ting Ting, Fen, Regina, Xue Yu n Serene. Thx for -making something happen- in my life. I really appreciate lots. Especially those tt ve know my secrets. Lol.. shh... u know who u are. Haha...

Anyway, Esther is happy wif her life n ask for no more... :)

Esther is feeling better~

2007-08-22T13:03:00.000+08:00
My dad is out of hospital.. Feeling better.. :) Juz wanted to post it as i know most of my frenz is concern bout me. Thx lots for accompanying me... Love u guys lots..

Um.. currently busy wif sch work n taking care of my dad. Tt's my priority. Um.. misses n misses...

I'm now better now.. haha.. wants to shop n slack. I'll be going to Korea soon... Kinda miss u guys.. Especially -you-

*Loves Loves Loves*

Dying~

2007-08-15T11:28:00.000+08:00
My father has went into the hospital... I feel so helpless... I dunno wat to do...

Nothing in my life now is good. Everything juz turn topsy turvy. I can't hold on any longer...

I feel so lonely... My energy is draining... :X

I wan my LG Shine

2007-08-13T18:17:00.000+08:00
Life's getting better i guess.. Um... he still haven open his golden mouth to ask.... Nvm den... Um... i wanna be a good gal. As well as evil gal. Wahaha... I wanna own LG Shine phone!!!! It's juz so tempting lor... I really like tt phone... :X

I wanna club!!! Lol... anyone... I wanna go Zouk. haha... Do ask me out... :)

I wan LG Shine LGShine LGShine!!!!!!

Living hell~

2007-08-12T14:36:00.000+08:00
To Lenoveshia- I dunno wat's in ur mind. I guess u nv plan to want me back anymore. Coz u juz did nth. Maybe now's it's going to be the last time i'm going to say bout u. If u really plan to wan me back, shouldn't u juz do smthg n woo me back. Making me feel love again??? But u did nth.. Busy wif ur work as usual n ur stuff. Perhaps life without me makes no difference at all... Since so, i guess juz kp it tt way. The money i own u i'll return u asap.

I dunno wat's wrong wif me... Haiz... Perhaps now waiting for *somebody* tt's going to appear in my life. I guess i wanna be persistent in doin things. Say "NO" when i tink i should. And not *giv in* I feel so... weird n sad. I dun mean to be like tis... I juz wanna be ordinary gal. Receiving n giving love as much as i can to the guy i love. But y it juz seems so difficult. :( I wanna cry out loud. Drinking as becoming part of my life. It's not wat i wan! But imagine facing the night alone... Kping awake.... Is nth but a night a living hell... ~~

I wanna wrap myself up like a cacoon...

Clubbing n more clubbing

2007-08-11T17:21:00.000+08:00
Well, went clubbing on Wed to MOS... Guess wat, MY HP kana stolen!!! Wat the hell~~ Dunno who's tt idiot tt steal my hp. Met some nice soul there too.. Whom i tink i shall not mention over here...

Um... went another time on Fri wif my frenz. Again dance like nobody's business. Those guys ar.. *ahem* majiam nv see gals b4??? Crowd to me like sandwich. I literally had to -push- them. I really PUSH them.. They still came together in the end... -_-

My feeling now is kinda strange. I did smthg tt nv ever in my life will i tot of it. It's like kinda thrilling n dunno wat to descibe. Izzit too rash or was it the effect of alchol. Um... right now, i wanna say tt i wan nth else, juz a simple love. Perhaps, now i'm not ready yet. I mean... maybe *he's not ready* yet. But who cares~ i'll lead my life as usual. Going my clubbing session as usual. Juz be happy n live life wif no regrets. Wat do u guys tink huh?

I wan a new hp!! Anybody buy for me???? I wan LG shine!!! I wan the black one!!! You You You! Yes you! buy for me *pathetic eyes*.... Lol... KINDIN LA! guys... Kaoz~

I'll Remember You

2007-08-08T16:21:00.000+08:00
I wanna kill myself *nearly* Coz i hunt tis song until i'm going crazy... Finally, hard work paid off... I FOUND it~! haha... It's called *I'll Remember You* Well, to whom it may concern, u noe who u are. Lol... i juz hope u'll take a closer look at the lyrics... :(

I’ll Remember You

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change

cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

* You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you, and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways

*
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

2007-08-08T09:34:00.000+08:00
Um... today i'll be going clubbing wif my frenz!!! Yippy!!! Haven confirm the venue yet but going to club is for sure...

I really dunno... Things btw me n Lenoveshia seems to be caught in the middle of no where.. Nobody seems to making any progression. Nobody wans to take a step forward n ask... Juz keeping quiet n wait.. wait n wait...

I dunno if he does ve *tt feeling* anot.. Does he change? Is he willing to be a brand new him n starts everything together? Well, i've yet to mention some *bitches* who seems to be happy. As far as i noe, U R NTH! Dun be a kpo to ask bout our affairs.. Is totally none of ur mutha-fucking business... I've my life to lead, my freedom to chose. I wans to be happy.

As for Lenoveshia, i hope u noe who u r... If u gonna juz stay there n wait.. Den i guess the ending of the story shall juz stops here. Izzit a new chapter of the story to begins or at the back of the book wif the big big font - THE END-

Haiz..

2007-08-07T23:54:00.000+08:00
Well, i cut my hair today... Spend bout $103.40/- *It was kinda expensive*

Anyway, love my new hair cut.. Did treatment n my hair was soft... It was really soft...

Haiz.. many of my frenz know me n Lenoveshia is not together anymore... But tt doesn't mean tt i dun care or wat lor...

He juz simply doesn't care me le bah... Frenz, i noe he's good... BUt he'll nv do things for me le.. I guess n i noe...

*Bing Yao... dun sad le... u still ve us... :)

Esther... *AgAiN*

2007-08-06T08:43:00.000+08:00
JW... GAME OVER... :)

*Dun ask me how or when... I'll be the old Esther again... *smiles*

It's him... JW

2007-08-05T03:21:00.000+08:00
I dunno how i was feeling now...

I saw him... I feel warm n life seems to be back...

I dun care if it juz passes as fast as lighting... I juz wanna own it once more...

I'm back again... I guess so... I wan smthg tt nobody else could giv...

I noe, he noes, heaven noes... :)

I'm down on luck~!

2007-08-03T14:16:00.000+08:00
Well, i wake up early in the morning *feeling sick* n went all to CLEMENTI to attend for sch. Guess wat, today there's no lessons at all!!! Wat the hell!!!! No ppl told me bout it... Only after i came home, i saw my frenz's Ting tagged on my blog. *Diaoz... -_-

I really begining to hate the place CLEMENTI!!! From Sengkang travel all the way to tis idiotic place. Having retarted teachers n a gang of chicken backsides in sch. I guess tis is the second place tt i nv ever wanna go besides from hell. It's even worst den hell.

Got the idiot CBC tt's always picking on me.. And hell noes those bitches in my class. Those *chicken-backside gang* Only noe how to por teachers. See god pray see ghost step. Really hate them lor... Act majiam like very big lidat. Still wat era now? Wan call water ar? Wan fight ar? Go take parang n hack ppl la... talk so much also no use.. Ppl use mouth talk, u guys use mouth shit. Make the whole classroom stinks. Like stinkbombs lidat... Kaoz eh!~

I also dunno y i lidat leh.. haiz... still sick... *weak* le.. Guess i'll be better.. Btw, thx guys for consoling me... *Appreciate deep down from my heart* MuAcKz!!!

Thx guys~ to the ppl out there...

2007-08-02T03:41:00.000+08:00
Went out wif my frenz - to Plaza Sing...

We went to walk ard n play BB. It was nice... :) i managed to hit 100!!! Yeah baby! Lol...Aftertt went to Shane's brother's wedding... Got drunk.. :x Lol... I was actually a little bit tipsy b4 i went to the chalet. Thx to my frenz ya... Lol...

Reply to tag:

To Reg- Thx lots... i love u too n mitchell :)
To Mabel - Thx Mabel.. :)
To anoymous - He working in Navy... On working basic... 8-5... :x
To someone - Thx lot's for ur comment... BUt sometimes, things is not as simple as that...companion is impt... but wat if not having the right attitude in the relationship??? anyway, thx lots for the advice.. :)

To anoymous - agreed wif him? Lol... wat bout me??? haha...
To passerby - u cute too.. Lol...
To someone - Thx... i'll not die... I'm still young ya? Haha.. not happy den blog lor... den can ve all my frenz n u guys wif me... Thx to everyone... appreciate lots... :)

Well guys, perhaps i ned time to let everything settle down... And begin to start afresh.. :)

I'm down~

2007-08-01T12:20:00.000+08:00
I feel like dieing.... Yes... Am i being played out? I guess i was..

Everything changed.. So fast tt i've no time to adapt it. I'm feeling so weak... Did i ask for too much? Or was it juz a beautiful memories after-all? Why!? I still do not noe the ans... I'm in a mess...

-Feeling so sick now... yes.. very very sick. I just wish to talk no more-

I feel like evaporating from earth now

There's LOVE, there's ME

2007-07-31T11:21:00.000+08:00
I really dunno wat has happen to me recently. Something is not very right... :[

My heart seems to flutter n feelings seems to sway. I dunno y... There's him. Yes... it's him. I dunno how to explain btw me n him. Something unsaid n always a special place deep in my heart.

Recently, feels so tired... I really ned someone to hug me tight n kiss me light. I'm seriouely deprived of LOVE! I believe most gals ned love to let themselves glow n shine... And i sincerly believe tt i'm one of those...

Right now... I wish tt i'm being embraced now... -someone who will loves me truely-

My *once awhile* Updates.. LOL~

2007-07-26T01:13:00.000+08:00
BOO!!! Haha...IT'S been centuries since i last update my blog. Haiz.... can't help it.. there's so many projects for me n so MANY things have happen... -.-

Here are some pics taken at Funan IT Mall wif my college ...

The last gal had same name as me.... ^^ Also call Esther.. :)

These are pics taken at Clark Quey - Central *Me and jeremy!~!!*

We use the Accer's laptop to take all these shots.... LOL....

Me n Fennie!!!!

Two very cute boys that caught my attention.. So i took their pics.. :)

AND!!!! Not forgetting me... LOL!!! ^-^v

Me me and me...

Some henna tatoos tt i did for fund-raising... :)

AT LAST!!!! It's me... and my new top tt i bought... :)

Clubbing again~!

2007-06-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

Went to my 3rd clubbing session wif my frenz to MOS on Wed. Had LLLLOOOOOTTTSSSAAAAA of fun!! haha... Simply loves the RnB there n REALLY dance like nobody's business. Wahaha....

It's me cam-whoring again... while waiting for my frenz... :)

Not forgetting my frenz... Fen n me *waiting for them*

Me n Ting Ting

Serene n Me

Me n My Frenz...

Jeremy, Victor, Zul, Bernard, Boon Siong n other gals...

It's me when i'm drunk... Purposely make it black n white. Haha... *My face is damn red* -_-''' Those "V" fingers is Fen's n Ting's wan...

Simply loves to club wif my frenz... Waiting for my 4th time!!! Yeah!!! haha...

Out at Sentosa

2007-06-18T22:59:00.000+08:00
ENJOYED myself at Sentosa... MOst of u guys sms n tell me tt sentosa is raining.. Well, it's drizzling la.. Haha.. Still managed to play vollyball n get into the sea n play wif water.... Here are some of the pics taken wif my frenz.. :)

Me n Ting, Fen, Serene, Bernard and Kellie!!!

NOt forgetting me n my Baby...

Um... I juz hope he'll be nicer to me...

Sentosa.. Here i come... :)

2007-06-16T00:26:00.000+08:00
FINALLY bought my shorts at Fox Women.. Wahahaha!!!

Another one... :p

I'm gonna wear tis bikini to Sentosa tml.. :)

Who cares~!

2007-06-14T23:31:00.000+08:00
It's been quite long since i've update my blog...

Many things have happen recently... *Fuck-dap* teachers messing wif my life. Trying to make things difficult for me.... But of coz.. i wun grumble or complain to anybody. It's MY LIFE tt i'm gonna take control in. Who cares?!~

Anyway, gotta buy many many stuff. My shopping list is long n i know i can't buy them all... Um... Nvm... juz work n save money den...

Gotta go sun-tanning wif my besties tis Sat. Yippie!!! Maybe going to MOS on Wed nx week wif my frenz again.. My THIRD clubbing session!! Whoops!~ Holidays are coming!!! Haha...

Btw, i tink i'm begining to LOVE my boyfriend... he simply turns me ON!~

Clubbing Night~!

2007-06-09T14:54:00.000+08:00
Yday went to watch movie wif my besties... Jeremy n Serene. We watch Pirates Of the Carribean...

I'm late for bout 40 mins for tis show... :( And made my bf angry..

Here's the proof...

After movie, met Ting n her bf, Zul, Xue Yu n her bf and my bf's sis, Kellie. We *WALKED* almost all Boat Quey n Clark Quey to find clubs. Lastly, we are settled down at C Clinic. Overall was not bad la... I'm the one dancing throughout... Den Jeremy accompany for sometimes to dance.. Was almost cornered by 2 ang mohs.. Luckily Kellie managed to save me out... Lol.. Yday's music was retro.. Not bad... Give 3 stars* :)

Me n Serene

Me n Ting

Lastly, my bf n me.. finally he *smiled*

Mitchell~

2007-06-08T01:22:00.000+08:00
Mitchell comes to Singapore and look for me!!! I'm so happy!!!

Nice ya? Haha... He stays at Orchard Hotel. And he'll be leaving tml morning... I'm gonna miss him lots... :)

Before i met Mitchell, went shopping wif Regina. Guess wat? I BOUGHT NEW SHOES AGAIN!!! Lol... My bf's killing me.... -_-

The Black Shoes

And the brown one which left only tis last pair... ^^

PS: Mitchell is a frenz, a father,a kin to me... He's old enough to be my grandfather... I dun care how you guys tink... I'm very angry bout how "some" tinks tt he is juz a money tree to me... Well, He's NOT! Being wif him is becoz he's a special person to me. Stop saying " wah.. he billionare leh... ask him giv u money or buy things for you la!" OR " Can ask him out? i got some business proposal to show him." WTF! Pls la! I WOULD NOT ENTERTAIN SUCH FCUKING BUSINESS! Why? Making use of me n him? Anyway, u tink Mitchell will care? He's alot more smart den u guys tink. Btw, to "some" ppl out there, i advice u juz give up. Not everything in tis world can be measured by MONEY!

Updates~

2007-06-06T23:48:00.000+08:00
It's been so long i've not update my blog after the PC Show.. Juz too busy..

This is wat happens when goods are left at the very last min of a roadshow... Lol...

Saying bout PC Show... Um... juz so pissed off by some inccidents... Dun wanna mention le...

Here's wat me n my frenz Jeremy's masterpierce. We simply juz got so bored over POM lessons... wahaha...

Pls take a look at this two rude singaporeans.

I'm simply juz very pissed off. U noe wat, i only heard from my frenz tt ppl use packet of tissue papers *chop* sit... *rolled eyes* I din noe tt they are really such ppl existing in tis world! They r lucky tt i only took their side view... %$@#@!#@!@%$~!!!!

Yday was my dad's birthday.. bought him a Mango cake from Swensen...

Take a look at tis juicy strawberry... believe it or not... tis strawberry is really big lor... cover 1/2 of my palm...

Anyway, i'm waiting for friday to come!!! Whoohoo!!! Clubbing time!! Haha!!! Really hope to ve fun wif u guys real soon!!!Yippy!!!

PC Show

2007-05-31T00:37:00.000+08:00
I'll be working as a promoter at Suntec

Venue : Suntec Convention Hall
Time : 11am - 10pm
Date : 31 May - 3 June

PS: See me there... *winkz....

BCam Frenz...

2007-05-28T18:58:00.000+08:00
As i said... I'm gonna update some of my colleges at my working place... *TRUST me... they really are very nice, fun loving ppl to be wif... Haha.. Simply love them lots!!! Haha...

They are Lee, Mr Cool, Mak, Xiao Mei, Harris, Lai Poh, Lionel and Mark... :)They said they'll be coming over to my road show to support me!! Haha.. Feel so touched... LOL...

*More pics will be updated.. I've meet Mitchell up. Well, we took hell lots of pic.. haha.. We had dinner at Grand Hyatt Hotel...Everything was marvellous... The food, ambience, wine n music... IT WAS GREAT!!!

PS: i felt so touched for wat Mitchell had done... We are not his kins nor his long ago frenz... Mitchell actually spend ard $700 plus or even more on us tis 3 days... He might bring us for a holiday... Maybe, Ting's Bali, Fenn's Japan, Mine Venice....I really can't believe it.. Dine in at Grand Hyatt was really BOMB costing.... :(

I've found the song - Would You Be There-

2007-05-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

Anyone wans the song. pls leave a mail or tag on my tagboard....

Would You Be There

2007-05-25T00:29:00.000+08:00
Hey guys n readers... As i replied, i'll try my best to find the song... So it's good news... I've found the lyrics of the Channel8 TV series drama "Mars VS Venus" song, -Would You Be There-

Would You Be There

If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that’s ok
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back

*Would you be there to love... to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you’ll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If i'm away will u still think of me
And wish that u could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me...all the way

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you’ll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would You Be There

Yeah!!! Meeting Mitchell up!~!

2007-05-24T23:27:00.000+08:00
Tml i'll be meeting Mitchell!!! Yeah!! Haha.. he's coming Singapore for a visit n he arranged to meet me n my gals up. WOOHOO!!! So excited!!! haha..

Been busy tis few days... haha... Um.. Eager to get to work on Sat n Sun plus the following PC shows... Um.. gotta get really busy...

*BTW, i'll be having another clubbing sessions wif my frenz real soon.. Hey gals, arranged it... YEAH!!! Haha.. so excited!!! :)

Asia Pacific Speaker Summit

2007-05-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!! I get to update wat i did for these past few days.So it's going to be really long.. ^^ Firstly, i ned to highlight bout the event i was involved in... It was an event tt's organised ONCE every two year - Asia Pacific Speaker Summit-
Tis event is a very important event. Well, why do i say so? Because the entry pricing is alarming!!! This 2-Days Summit fee cost S$888for non-member. See this!!! So, i can proudly said tt i really gain ALOT!!!

So, let the picture do the talking...

My Badge n the artillery...

Photos taken wif my frenz who are also involved...

Next, this are some of the speakers whom i've attended the talk...
Al Argo, Singapore
Upon graduating University with a degree in Advertising/Marketing, Asia’s Enthusiastic Inspirational and Motivational Speaker, Al Argo began to work in Product Development and Sales for one of America's leading daily publications. He later went on to be the Marketing Director of The Alzheimer’s Centers - Tampa Bay. Eventually, Al went on to find Target Marketing which rapidly became one of the area’s leading Advertising/Promotional Product firm.

Argo has presented over 10,000 one-on-one sales presentations, training sessions and speeches in the last 15 years. His diverse background in advertising, sales and marketing, communications, management and the non-profit sector assist in his expertise in training in areas such as goal setting, communications and “Customer Centered Selling”.

Christian Chua , Singapore
APS Singapore
Christian Chua is the creator of the popular workshop ‘Magnet for Success’. He is well known for his lively and humorous speeches and workshops and is described by his audience as one of the most motivating and inspiring trainers.

Christian began as an Entrepreneur at a young age of 23 and has turned a $2 startup to a multi-million dollar business today. At the same time, he is also the author of 2 fast selling books "Financial Literacy" and "Making Extra Pocket Money".

He now focus a large part of his time speaking and training people in the areas of People Skill, Service and Sales Motivation. He is well-booked with over 150 speaking and training engagements every year.

Dave Rogers, Canada
Founding Member
ASA – Singapore Awareness, Understanding, and Making It Happen!
Dave Rogers is a dynamic speaker, author and the Chief Coach of the XL Results Foundation. Dave’s Awareness, Understanding and Making It happen demonstration will illustrate how to use the powers of east and west, embrace the simplicity of time, focus, and being, to shift participants to an empowered state.

Deborah Torres Patel, USA
Founding Member
ASA – Singapore
Deborah Torres Patel is Asia’s Leading Voice & Presentation Coach and expert trainer on Singapore Channel 5’s "Villa Wellness" reality programme and guest star on “Spirit of Service”. For 21 years Deborah has worked in over 60 countries teaching personal and professional clients to speak, sing, and communicate with more confidence and full self-expression using a unique 5-part training series she created called Expressing You! ®

John Shackleton, CSP New ZealandJohn Shackleton became one of Europe’s top inspirational speakers after achieving phenomenal success in many areas. Successful businessman, international sports coach, property developer, British and New Zealand masters swimming champion, executive coach to CEO’s and MD’s, quite a background! In 2003 he sold his UK companies, emigrated to New Zealand and started speaking across Australasia and the Far East. In only his second year in the country he was voted Inspirational Speaker of the year by the National Speakers Association of New Zealand.

Shirley Taylor, Singapore
Shirley Taylor has established herself as a leading authority in modern business writing and communication skills. She is author of several successful books, including international best-seller Model Business Letters, E-mails & Other Business Documents 6th edition.

Based in Singapore, Shirley conducts popular public workshops on business writing, e-mail and communication skills, and also in-house training for corporate clients. Shirley puts lots of energy into her workshops to ensure they are practical and informative, as well as entertaining and fun.

Shirley often speaks at international conferences. She has recently organised and hosted ASSAP 2007, the Asian Summit for Secretaries and Admin Professionals.

Titus Yong, Singapore
From his first career working on offshore platforms (as an Engineer) to the jungle timber logging camps (as a Process Consultant), Titus moved on to be a Venture Capitalist during the dotcom era. Through these industries, he was struck by the importance of innovation as a strategic competitive advantage as well as a source of joy at work!

His passion led him to pursue research on creativity & intelligence at Harvard University (unfortunately he didn’t drop out like Bill Gates, but graduated with a master degree) and interviewed/learnt from Nobel Prize winners.

Titus is a founder of Emergenetics Asia, which provides brain-based psychometric tools through its over a hundred associates in a dozen Asian cities. He now spearheads Ingenio Pte Ltd, an education/training company that promotes ingenious thinking in children and adults.

Warwick John Fahy , Shanghai
PSA-China Warwick believes “you get what you give” and his massive contribution in China has been to pioneer the growth in the public speaking industry.

He is the Chairman of China Toastmasters 2006-7 and has more than doubled the number of clubs in China during his term. He is also the founding President for the Professional Speakers Association of China, a candidate member of the IFFPS.

Warwick is a make it happen coach. He helps business executives & entrepreneurs like you to acquire, demonstrate and retain the tools, techniques and strategies to take your connecting, influencing and motivating skills to a higher level.

Warwick’s company contributes 10% of all income to the Love without Boundaries charity for orphans in China.

Warwick is a certified professional facilitator with the IAF and published author.

W Mitchell, CSP-CPAE USA
W Mitchell speaks with passion about the human spirit. He speaks to you about the battles, the victories of life and focuses on the positives of change--taking responsibility--and the proven result...himself. From co-founding a metal casting company that put thousands to work, from his election as mayor and congressional nominee, from a fiery motorcycle accident that left him burned over 65% of his body.

His inspirational personal story is of life's challenges in the world of business, politics and day-to-day living; of a new understanding of your inner strengths and abilities. Through his keynote speeches, books, tapes and television appearances, Mitchell has enthralled over 60 million people worldwide.

Zaibun Siraj, Singapore

Currently the Training Consultant at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Zaibun Siraj has previously served as Head of the Educational Development Centre; Director, Excellence in Teaching; Director, International Liaison Unit and Director, International Students Centre at Ngee Ann Polytechnic in Singapore.

She is a founder member and a past President of the Association of Women for Action and Research of AWARE. She has also served as Honorary Secretary of the Management Committee of the National University of Singapore Society. Zaibun has been a member of the National Youth Achievement Award Council since 1995. She has written and spoken extensively on various issues related to education, leadership, success, self-esteem, motivation and women. In 1997, she was awarded the Louis Feraud Award for Women’s Advocate.

Well, this speakers are wonderful.. I heard they are paid from $5k - $10k per hour to giv a speech. Looks like i really gain *hell lots!!!

Below are some pictures taken with some of the speakers...

We gals and Dave Rogers

Me taken wif Warwick John Fahy and W Mitchell

First, i'll talk bout Mr Warwick John.. Guys look!!! He look so like Justin Timberlake*older version* lor!!! So handsome!! Haha.. so happy when he put his hand at my shoulder... I *gasped* Wahaha!!! All the gals got the chance to be so near him.. Yeah!!!

Um.. when i first saw W. Mitchell, i knew he was no ordinary man. He was confident in watever things he do. I became his good frenz after i helped him solved him PALM Treo 650's problem. Time to time, he would come n talk to me. His speeched really motivates me... Every word touched my heart. He gave me his book n wrote some wishes for me...

And not forgetting Mr Malcomn who send us to tis summit...

Today i was late for work!!! Luckily Steven my in charge was a kind soul. he ask me to take my time.. Lol.. Know many frenz there... Got Harris, Henry, Mark, Lional, Xiao Mei n another guy.. Forget his name le... *Opps. These guys here are really nice!! And they r young too.. Age ard 23-28...

Nice working environment... but the problem is *too little people*le!!!

ATTENTION!!!

2007-05-19T19:19:00.000+08:00
GUYS!!! Please come down to Best Denki!!! Seriously, there's no PPL here LOR!!! GUYS!!! PLS COME K? I 'LL ATTACHED THE ADDRESSS INSIDE!!!!

Bcam e-lIFE #02-001

Especially all those ITE Clementi ppl.. SUPPORT ME LA!!!! :x

So painful!!!

2007-05-15T22:52:00.000+08:00
ARGH!!!! I'm not feeling too well. Stomach is so so painful...

Um... i wonder when will he noe tt i'm feeling unwell now... Had a little tiff wif him. He called me to talk.BUT all the while he juz kp talking to his frenz instead of me.. Our conversations was less den 10 sentence... haiz... *i dun even ve time to tell him tt i'm feeling unwell. Am i being selfish??? I DUNNO!!!! Juz feel unwell now...

Why are we like tis???

SHOPPING!!!

2007-05-14T23:43:00.000+08:00
Today i was late again for sch... Haiz.. AGAIN!!! Anyway, after sch went to Paya Lebar's Sing Post to do some research for our project. In the end, got nth coz ned to write in a letter... Wasteful trip -_-

Later on, went to CityHall to eat. Together wif Serene, Bernard, Ting and Fen. GUess wat guys??? I BOUGHT NEW SHOES AGAIN!!! Lol.. I love the shoes alot!! * My BF will get mad if he saw tis.. Lol... Wat to do?? Haha..

My shopping spree...

Today one of my frenz Fen did a very silly thing... *She talk n walk den suddenly bang into a pillar!!! LOL!!!!!!!!! It was very funny lor! Even one of the guy inside the shop comes out n giggle. Fen!!! U really very kum gong leh!! Haha... -i can't control myself but juz kp laughing.... i noe tt's bad of me...- LOL!!!!

Spend alot again.. haiz... Anyway guys, i'll be handling 2 road show. One is at Suntec tis week n next week, Sat n Sun. :) Another PC show is on 31 May, 1,2,3 June. Venue not very sure... Kk... wanna buy any mobile gagets.. Do come down.. :)

Blades of Glory

2007-05-14T01:05:00.000+08:00
Went of out wif my bf today... Um.. Went to AMK to watch movie. Watch Blade of Glory. It's a nice show.. Quite funny. Haha...

Guess wat, my bf finally put on a shirt!! It looks so handsome on him. Simply lurves guys who wear long sleeves button shirts...

Got ppl say my bf looks old... -_-''' Haiz... *baby, told u to do more facial le.. U dun listen la... Now ppl say me n u like mei mei n uncle.. Nx time become mei mei n ah gong den u noe ar... Lol...

Of coz.. not forgetting me...

Um... *I DUN LIKE THOSE FISHBALLS!!! Argh!!! Btw, saw one of my frens, Andy,in AMK. He was works at one of the shops selling hp. Um... Kinda nice.. Anyway, I juz dun understand ppl.

-I'm online now on MSN. I've ppl come out to me n say "hi". I would den say "hi" back n ask "u r?" Den they'll say, "wa, talk to u b4 de, so fast forget me". HELLO!!!! God noes who u r?! Juz when u only come once in awhile to chat wif me i'll ve to NOE WHO U R?! Unless i really kp chatting wif u for bout a week or a mth la. Juz tt pathetic one time n U expect me to noe who they r.. WTF!-

I wonder was has become of me...Yearning to be loved every second,every minute,every hour and everyday...

My little Red Shoes.. :)

2007-05-12T18:08:00.000+08:00
Went out wif my besties today...

Guess wat.. bought new shoes again.. haha... I like it alot...

Pics i took today... Not pretty but is JUST ME. :)

Btw, my frenz Shaun wrote me a song... Heard him sing it to me. I'll tell u, it's nice! Haha.. Tis is the lyrics.. :)

我只想

在我心里你是多么美
在你心里我却有怀疑
不知为何看不到你
我无心无力

有太多不能接受的原因
有太多不能解脱的秘密
但是我懂, 在我生命, 一定有你

我只想和你在一起
我只想听见你说我愿意
不会让你伤心让你哭泣
就请你感受我的真心
我只想和你在一起

Bernard, i'm proud of you!

2007-05-11T01:09:00.000+08:00
WEll, i'm so so proud of my frenz Bernard. He got into media coverage!!! And i saw his handsome face in the Newpapers. So honoured to ve him as mine frenz. haha...

Well, his hard work finally paid off... *Pat on his back*

Um... as usual.. havin lessons in sch.. Having troubles wif attendance.. Dunno y lidat..

I really hate some hypocrites in my class. They act as if they are like innocent kids. BUt in fact, they r juz so god-damn bitch!~ I shall not name who but my frenz ard me will noe.

Feeling tired~ *yawns*

Besties~!

2007-05-07T23:08:00.000+08:00
Went Queensway wif my frenz Jeremy today.. In the end, i spend the most! -_- Bought 2 button shirts for my bf. It was so nice!!! Simply loves the cutting and the streamline of the shirt...

Play Captain's Ball wif my besties today. Had great fun! Simply love you guys loads!!!

Um... reached home n started to cam-whore again... *Kinda pissed off... Hate those fishballs on my face :X My bf wans to bite them :(

Is me. Just me.

2007-05-06T23:02:00.000+08:00
Went Plaza Sing wif my bf today.. Accompany him to watch Spiderman 3... AGAIN!~! Wahaha....

Went home and took some photos... Cam-whoring again.. Lol... Photo-editing is simply so cool~! People out there, photos can be *DECEIVING*

I wanna be myself.. Is me. Just me.

A night that i would not forget~!

2007-05-06T00:41:00.000+08:00
5 May, is my first to go clubbing wif my frenz... Feels so excited and ve lots of fun!

While waiting for my frenz, we took some pics together...

Went to watch Spiderman 3. It was a nice show. Very touching also... But i din cried, Fen did... Dunno y leh.. Haiz.. Maybe *her uncle also died tt way??? Or her bf treat her lidat???* Lol...

Later, we went to Jewels Bar. Love the ambience over there... Songs are really nice... Most imptly, *I DUN REMEMBER I"M DRUNK! I only remember that i drink bout 1 glass??? But mine frenz say i drink alot. I even drink their share.. *Sry guys... I'm really sry.. Dun mean it... Maybe juz too happy...

Anyway, i really did enjoy myself today... Thx guys for giving me such a wonderful night...

Serene AKA Tinklebell~

2007-05-04T01:50:00.000+08:00
Today, i giv one of my BFF a new nickname. She is call Tinklebell. Sounds nice ar? haha... Anyway, went to his hse today to celebrate his birthday. Bought the cake from Swensen... Kinda costly.. but it's worth it... :)

Photos taken wif him...

Mr Roland

It's Mr Roland n me again...

Lastly, i do like to indulge wif my cam...

3 May~ His birthday

2007-05-03T12:39:00.000+08:00
Today is my bf's birthday I've planned to do smthg for him. Celebrate wif him i supposed...

Um... feels so tired n sleepy

I yearn for a simple